Wednesday, February 25, 2009

som over due photo. lol

3:15 PM

i really do miss you. will you miss me tonight?

Saturday, February 21, 2009

yala, i am a bitch, i am a slut loh. what more you want to say about me? thats all? all i have to say is it takes one to know one. i dont have to explain much to you anyway. you are not my parents. i dont think i got the need to explain things to you. and i almost forgot. if you dare, and i say IF. see properly, its IF, dont say i dare you. if you dare, then just come scold me directly. right in front of my face. i dont mind you coming to scold me like there is one dog barking in front of me.

although i say this alot of times, because you are not the only one that scold me that, i shall say it again. when things happened, dont come assume or presume tthat i am the one who did it to spoil anything you have. come on, face the reality man. if the guy can just say, " if you love me, you will do it," then dump u not long after that, what does this imply. dont tell me such a simple logic you dont even know.

dont always think that you are the victim. just face the reality that you can be easily conned by guys with their sweet talk. you should know what most of the guys are after in the 21st century. you are not living in the 60s or 80s.

just blamed it on yourself for being stupid, for being such a simple minded girl who doesnt even know how to look at what type of person a person is. too bad for you. you got to brush up and see more before you can realised or see who is good to you, who is bad to you.

please, dont ever push the blame to me like some other girls. i believe you are a more muture one. but please, if you hate me, just scold me right in front of me. i can tell you, (SG) for you is unfortunate. choose what you want. dont come bothered me with this type of thing. i got better things to do.-.-

and guys, those that know me, please dont use me as an excuse to break up with your girls. if you are after sex, or feeling fade, just tell straight in her face. be man enough to do that, and not use another girl to be your shield for break up.

i swear, i am so used to this type of thing already. *G*, next time think and ask around before you come accusing me of stealing your bf or come pointing finger at me saying i am a third party.

why would i break up someone for no reason, and when i dont find any reason that why i must break a couple up. and i dont do such thing ya.

and for your information, i already got someone i love, and he is definitely not your guy. go ask around and you will know. thats all i have to say to you, *G*.

next. *Y*.

why do you go around fucking and flirting other guys when you claim that you like you boyfriend?

dont be such a degrace. ya, you are keeping your boyfriend in the dark. but soon, this type of thing will go into his ear. not to even say soon. he is already starting to get supicious of your action and all. please, if you still have some concious, please clear thing out with him, whether it like it or not.

it better that you tell him now. you know him well, and you know what he will do. just break up with him if you are toying with him. he is so into you and you do that behind his back. do you even know what is shame.

i am not the one scolding you. maybe you dont know, even your closest friend are saying about you. please wake up from your sleep ok.

do think about it. -.-

girls now aday are so ridiculous. -.-

1:30 PM

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

alot of things happened recently. shall not say it out here.

anyway, aunt is cremated last tuesday(10 Feb 2009). everybody cried like hell when they see her body being cremated. anyway, the way they are cremated is different from those in singapore. in singapore, you wont get to see when the body is cremated. but over there, they get to see the everything. its rather sad. i cant imagine if i were there. i think i will be crying like some mad dog over there. i dont think, but i will.

i missed her alot. although i cant get to see her anymore, but she will always be remember by me, not only me, but everyone else.

everyone started crying when they see aunt photo. she was still fine and well a month before. it just happened so sudden. beloved uncle, hope you will be fine soon.

had a fun and exciting valentine. but someone created much trouble for me lah. whatever.

recently, alot of things happened to me, as well as those near me.

oh ya. this part is for that particular person. you know who i am referring to...

please stop all your nonsense. i already had enough. i spilled everything out clean and clear for you. there is no need for you to find ways to try to meet me, because i already made it clear to you, i wont meet you. i gave you three reason why i wont meet you. please dont be so..... sorry for being straight forward, but can you please dont be so thick skin? its over between us. the past is the past. i wont bring the past to the present. i plan for my own future, and not like what you say, i predict my future. please, for heaven sake, leave me alone already. you are making me irritated with you. if you keep trying to find ways to meet me, or harass me or what so ever, i wont hesitate to make a police report. and i am not kidding. i dont care about who you are to me in the past. please know where you stand right now. you got no rights to interfer in the decision i have made. whether i want to meet you or not, its my choice. since i chose not to meet you, means i wont meet you. please respect my decision. like i say to you in msn, if you do not respect, then forget it. dont bother about saying anything else. and get this in your mind. " ITS OVER BETWEEN US. THERE WONT BE ANY OTHER CHANCE FOR US TO BE BACK TOGETHER. I WONT BE BOTHERED WITH YOU ANY MORE. YOU ARE NO BODY TO ME. " thats all i have to say to you. i already made it clear. please stop all your nonsense. you will be doing me a great favour by doing that. THANKS.

shall update till here

loves
jun

10:45 PM

Saturday, February 7, 2009

its really hard for me the accept the fact that you are gone. whenever i think of you, the next second, i noticed that my tears is already flowing down my cheek, my chin.

sorry that i cant be there to see you for the last time. but i will be here to pray hard for you.

the memory of you is just like everything happened just yesterday. its like yesterday we were still playing together, and now you are gone.

reality is so scary. i have been trying to control my tears. but the next second, tears is already flowing down of my eyes. i find myself unable to accept this reality, unable to accept the fact that you are gone. everything in my life seem to have stopped.

i wish i can turn the clock around upside down.

mum and dad will be flying over to see you for the last time, as well as help out with the necessary.

i miss you. i really do miss you. sorry that i can fulfilled your last wish. so sorry.

i broke down. and become very moody right now.............

1:30 AM

Friday, February 6, 2009

something terrible, horrible happened. my aunt fainted, and was admitted to hospital. now she is unconcious. my uncle is crying like dont know what over there. and until now we dont know what happened to her. everyone was so so worried about her now.

she was so kind and nice to us. i love her the most. but now, something like that happened. i dont know what to do. wanted to see her, but its impossible, because she is in thailand now. seriously i am so worried about her lah. and my mother is now waiting for my uncle call.

everyone is so worried, everyone is praying for her. i seriously dont know what to do. i wanted to cry, but i know i cant. i got to control my tears. this is too shocking for me, as well as my family.

she did so much things for us, but now, we cant do anything for her. all we can do is pray hard, and hope that she will wake up soon.

totally moodless right now. not in the mood to do anything. hope my uncle will call us soon to update us on what is happening to my aunt.

shall end here.

5:10 PM

its really hurtful for us to know that now you are gone. but it is definitely most hurtful for your husband, our uncle.

he is so pitiful. before knowing you, his previous wife pass away. than now you are gone too. i dont know what is happening. but this is definitely very shocking and sudden for all of us.

what excately happened? you were still happily eating and chatting with uncle. and then, u just passed out out of a sudden. mum said that you suffered an heart attack before you collapsed.

i wasnt in the mood to do anything actually. i still cant accept the fact that you are gone. u did come back to see us last night right?

i miss you, and you will be miss by all of us, and the memories of you will be kept deep within our heart.

sorry that the last time you wanted to go sentosa, but we didnt bring you go. sorry that we cant fulfilled your wish. if there is another chance, i will bring you go. i miss you very much.

i miss the time when we were together playing cards. you say you like my cooking, and you didnt get to eat it the last time you came. i am so sorry. i am really very sorry.

i think you should be happy in your new place now.

i dont want to lost any one who is dearest to me anymore. its really very hurtful.